Lonely Valentine's Day

多么寂寞的一个情人节。

跟朋友度过，也太可怜了吧。。。

早知道跟producer说我今天不要去做工，就可以去找你了。。。

好久没见到你了，最近还好吗？我还是一样想你。我还是一样喜欢你。

你的情人节，过得如何？你跟她，还在一起吗？


回来马来西亚的感觉是：好热！

台湾的冬天太爽了，东西又超便宜，尤其是烟 ：）

我想，我应该去那边升学的。

台湾的ｐｒｏｄｕｃｔｉｏｎ很厉害，ｃｒｅｗ也很有水准。我们这次的灯光师绝对有水准！打灯一流，又自动自发，不用ＤＯＰ跟他多说两句。Ｓｔｙｌｉｎｇ　ｄｅｐａｒｔｍｅｎｔ也很厉害，完全专业。

台湾之旅真的打开了我的眼睛，让我看到国外ｆｉｌｍ　ｉｎｄｕｓｔｒｙ的高水准。然而，我还是觉得ｍａｌａｙｓｉａ的ｆｉｌｍ　ｉｎｄｕｓｔｒｙ也不完全输给他们。我们需要的，是更好的ｍａｒｋｅｔ，更大的ｊｏｂ，这样，我们才能更快进步。现在我们的市场应该比较冷淡了，拜经济风暴所托。％＃·％￥＃·

还是比较习惯自己常用的ｃｒｅｗ和ｔｅａｍ。这次回来了，我要让我们更进步！

还有！我遇到一个超帅的男演员！！！ 他还很小吧，但很帅很可爱又很有气质。。。
以后应该会很有名！


爱上了这首歌。。。

为你写诗

愛情是一種怪事　我開始全身不受控制
愛情是一種本事　我開始連自己都不是

為你我做了太多的傻事　第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞　為你失去理智

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子　我忘了說　最美的是你的名字

愛情是一種怪事　你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情是一種本事　我在你心裡什麼位子

為你我做了太多的傻事　第一件就是為你寫詩

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞　為你失去理智

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子　我忘了說　最美的是你的名字

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你　我學會彈琴寫詞　為你失去理智

為你寫詩　為你靜止　為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子　我忘了說　最美的是你的名字

我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的樣子
我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的樣子


这首歌有克群为我唱live，实在很好听：）

唉。


我还是很想见到你。

I had the most most most peaceful weekend and holiday!

Went to starbucks everyday to read, finished my book(s), went shopping, bought a lot of clothes, cleaned my room... gonna clean my car though, it's a mess.

I love work-free weekends :)



Wish you get that job, not because i'll be able to see you, but because you'd be happy :)

A love letter to you, and to myself.

Yesterday could have been our two-year anniversary, that is if we didn't break up.

24th October 2008.

I would have come back to Penang to meet you, or i would have forced you to come to KL and find me.

We could have gone for a good dinner. Have a good laugh. All kinds of shit.

I would have told you that i missed you i loved you, and give u a kiss.

But those could not have happened for now, so i think i'd go celebrate on my own.

Go out for a fancy dinner, buy a nice dress, buy myself flowers.

Yeah. Flowers.

Happy pseudo two-year anniversary my love.

今天突然又想你了，不懂为什么呢？

这种感觉好辛苦好辛苦。

昨天我当逃兵了，我逃了。我静静的不说话了，因为我不想勉强自己。

他一直问我为什么了，生气了吗，干嘛不说话。

我没告诉他为什么。我回家了。

我想，我不应该再勉强自己了。是时候学习一个人，身边不该再有一些我勉强自己去接受的人了。

嗯。要学习长大。


如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱他。
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己爱别人。
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的，有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃。
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。


说得很对。谢谢forward message　给我的人。

我要学习去爱别人，不能，就先爱自己。

From someone in facebook.

sometimes you have to run away,
just to see who will run after you;
somtimes you have to talk quitely,
just to see who's listening;
sometiimes you'll have to step up in a fight,
just to see who's standing by your side;
sometimes you have to let yourself fall,
just to see who's there to catch you;
sometimes you have to make a wrong decision,
just to see who's there to help you fix it;
and sometimes you have to let go of the one you love,
just to see they'll love you enough to come back.

Life is very the good indeed!

Work has been going on smoothly, received a word of compliment from 1st AD ("efficient! i like it!"), going back home at 6 or 7pm, sufficient time to hang out with friends, enough time for me to do my own work, bonding and having fun with colleagues!

Went out for dinner and hang around one utama with 1st AD and trainees last night and went to KL to see the night life and was introduced to the clubs in KL. Bonding bonding! Fun!

Have been seeing someone or a few persons on and off, i don't know what i am doing or thinking, but still, moving on!

I love my life!

"给我一次机会。"

我只能想到你。

"让我保护你。"

我只能想到你曾给我的谎言。

"你从槟城回来，就没开心过了。"

我知道...

原来要忘记一个人，要忘记一段情，是很难的。

我好努力打开我的心，是不能的。

以后，我再也不会犯同样的错。

我知道这个人会很疼我，会很爱我，但我不能。

对不起。

Last night when i went to bed i couldn't find meow meow, my black doggy doll that accompanied me to sleep every night, since the past 1 year plus.

I was so worried so scared i couldn't sleep.

Messaged a person i haven't messaged for a long time, heard a ringtone that hasn't rung in a long time, talked to a person i haven't talked in a long time.

Still it hurts. Still i found my meow meow in the end. Still i will try my best.